A few short years ago, I was pulling out of my driveway heading to work when my 15 month old son-whom had just learned to climb- waved at me "bye-bye" as I headed off to work. His little palm waving and banging at the window, tears started falling down my cheeks, hot and heavy. I backed away and as I was driving kept wondering... why did I become a nurse? Why am I here, where I am leaving my kids and I didn't know this was going to be so hard?
My life wasn't so bad, we had four kids and two incomes, had bought our own home for the first time in our marriage that year, but I just couldn't shake the feeling of unhappiness. Of feeling like I was a horrible mom for leaving my kiddos, and leaving them for someone else to raise. It was my unsettled feelings that kept getting to me. I started to dread going to work as nurse, taking care of everybody else's families and leaving my own.
Then we moved across country about a year after that, we then had five kiddos. We packed up our family, sold our house and my husband told me I could stay at home with the kids. (come to find out he actually was just bribing me so we could move to Alaska, but nevermind that!) I took that as an opportunity to embrace being a stay at home mom. (Then the whole world changed in 2020.... and I became a homeschooling mama for the year of 2020-2021)
Now life is like this. I am getting my Alaska Nursing License because I want to. Not because I have to. I help other nurses who are moms find their passions, and earn money from home so they can too, stay home with their babies. I now work for myself, on my own terms, and will use my Alaska Nursing License to help others with my own business. I hope to help twenty five nurse mom's start their own businesses in the next year so that they can also change the trajectory in nursing and in motherhood.
Kara, The Mom Nurse